Join for FREE | Take the Tour Lost Password?
Shop deviantART for the
holidays and save BIG!
Click here! :holly:
[x]

deviantART

:omfg:
 
About Me Member Deviously Deviant L0tusdragon18/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 1 Year
Needs Premium Membership
Statistics 10 Deviations
64 Comments
423 Pageviews

Newest

why?

Wed Aug 26, 2009, 9:10 PM
  • Mood: Unhappy
  • Drinking: strawberry lemonade
why do i still cry? i dont know where my heart is no more. its stuck between two places and i dont know where to go. a pass love is still there in my heart and his words still make me cry. knowing how bad he is hurt hurts so bad. memories of our good times are stuck in my head. i've dreamt about him a couple of times already but i dont know how to stop them. barely eating, barely sleeping, over working myself getting hurt and becoming depressed. my current and i yeah he spoils me but lately he gets upset with me. he doesnt give me the attention that i use to get so much. sometimes i question where i stand with him. so much things has happen with us i dont know what is going on no more. is everything ok am i happy i dont know. rj thing was stupid. now he hates me since i didnt hook up with him. i dont give a crap about it no more either. kim isnt around no more since sakura is back here now. i have no one left. no one to turn to no where to go. i feel empty and completely lost. dont know where my mind or heart is no more. if i still have one left. hearing from my ex made me happy but i dont know y im crying. i just cant stop crying. y is it that he makes me cry the most? i dont know no more.

deviantID

No deviantID yet.

Devious Info

  • Interests: poetry, any type of art work, and stories of all type
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar Allen Poe
  • Personal Quote: Dont give up on what you believe. Instead work harder and it's better to try than not to try at

deviantART Community Board

[x]

Comments


:iconwilsondep89:
from the 20th to the 24th,my family gone ,is there anyway we can see each other
:iconl0tusdragon:
ill try and see if we can. cause this month its been really busy and the mall sometimes dont close till 10 which means i dont get off work till 11
:iconwilsondep89:
please please read this,it very warm


i look for hours

to find a smile ,a type smile that warm my soul,

a smile from a person that made me feel special,rare ,or pure

how many people can make you feel extraordinarily

who can give the feel of peace,those feeling of not being judge for your action of self expression

what are the very feeling of touch ,warm, or comfort .that isn't special,

how do people work so hard as they do and believe nothing there is special ,

where do we lose everything and come out with something back isn't there ,

where do we stand if we can't believe ourselves ,what can be achieve from others words

when we can believe in the morals,family ,or love ones, faith moves but hope and determination are soul.
:iconwilsondep89:
why is it so hard to open up on this website or to people you love ,i want to talk to you ,i really do ,a lot my friends ,that i know is around told me ,why stay around someone that stab me around ,all the time they talk to me ,i blow talking like crazy in anger ,after a long time ,i just lost all my words and they just ask me ,you feel better ,i said no ,

at one time ,i couldn't stop talking about how much i love you ,at work ,at home ,outside ,even in my dreams, the one thing that came to me was so many things,

you tell me your hurt ,sad ,and i'll never make you happy, saying, do you want to make me unhappy for the rest of my life ,after that everything just seem like your so much better off,this is the stupidness thing i did was jump off a hlll hoping to die ,it didn't kill me ,i just kept trying and well i learn i don't want to die this way with nothing ,i can always rebuild the thing that made me sad when i learn this ,is that i lose true love ,

when i went to las vagas ,the vecation my mom wanted to bring you ,i just cry ,inside thinking of you ,after the vacation ,i came back and readed your journal and i learn that ,i really did cause more harm to you ,if you ever want to talk ,i'll talk ,no matter how much i improve ,i really want to know the truth ,what a lie and isn't ,i know what real ,but my heart doesn't anymore ,nothing can be the same ,we can always try to rebuild whats destroy ,to make something more beautiful ,please don't give up
:iconl0tusdragon:
i really dont know anymore wilson... right now i want to run away. i put on a smile at work and all and i havent talked to much of my friends at all. havent been to school since brent dumped me. been to work go out then home. i dont have much of life right now. >.<
:iconwilsondep89:
me too ,art has been taking over my life and work too,i been in a art college for a awhile no,
:iconl0tusdragon:
i really dont know anymore wilson... right now i want to run away. i put on a smile at work and all and i havent talked to much of my friends at all. havent been to school since brent dumped me. been to work go out then home. i dont have much of life right now. >.<
:iconwilsondep89:
please don't run away,then you'll trully hurt me

Site Map